Well, I am well behind on my blogging! I'm a little shocked and embarrassed to see that my last blog was in July -J
Just where does the time go? Hard to believe that in two days from now we will welcome in 2010. Winter, the end of another year, the start of another is a time for inner reflection and manifesting 2010.
In many ways I've had the feeling that I've been teaching for years now, and have had to question myself on when I left my government job. Officially I left in December of 2007, but in my mind and heart I was gone long before then, so maybe that is why it feels like I've been doing this full time for longer than two years (depending on how you count it). In all, this year has been (and is still) a big learning curve for me over this past year, trying to juggle schedules, classes, and useful time management. An important part of how I arrange my schedule is to be sure that there is time for self-practice.
My biggest challenge this year as a human being, yoga teacher and practitioner has been dealing with pain of my right knee and hip pain. It could be much worse, and I've had to really learn how to practice with it, respect it and even try to love it. It has softened my practice a little, but in a good way. Basia Going, my mentor, has mentioned how important it is not to be in the habit of naming things, like ‘I have a bad knee" otherwise, your body will start to believe it. In some way too I am thankful that this happened, a blessing, as I believe that it has provided me with greater sensitivity for students who experience similar problems and the importance of knowing and using modifications.
Also, personally, it is real easy for me to get into a downward spiral, the negative spin. Part of this arises I think that I do get a bit S.A.D. and find the dark, cold of winter very challenging. The other part of this stems from a feeling of insecurity and inadequacy. I won't go into the details here, but it is a part of me that I've been trying to change. I have though been making some breakthroughs, as I had a spell a while ago and was able to look at the barrage of thoughts streaming from my head and simply say to myself that I am ill, it would pass, these are not really my thoughts, who I am and things will get better. Somehow, this recognition and acceptance helped to change my head space. Additionally, when I start to feel the attack again, I say something positive like "Today is going to be a Great Day!" Sometime too I believe that you just need to ride out the emotion, and like everything, it will change.
2009 has been a very challenging year for many of my dear friends in my life who have dealt with various issues ranging from poor health, death of loved ones, divorce, cheating/jerk husbands, home issues, finance challenges and other family-related challenges. I believe that things will be better and will improve for them all in 2010. According to Kundalini numerology, Year 2010 (2+0+1+0 = 3) key themes for this year of 3 are: action, manifestation, positive mind, affirmation, heat, fire of joy or anger, resourceful, hope when there is no hope, smile when there no reason, equality or victim, success, respect and right value.
Over the summer (in July) I ran some classes from home thanks to this great group of ladies I teach at a community centre near by. It was lots of fun to have classes at home and overall they went pretty smoothly. If there is interest again in this, I may run some more – plus it's a great way to keep the house clean -J .
2009 was also the year of getting the Madonna Flow parties of off the ground. My husband and I put together this really cool 90 mix of music from Madonna, some new and lots of old stuff, brought a disco ball and with Christmas lights we do this playful Ashtanga flow to her music. The Madonna Flow parties have been well received and always a great group of people come out and party to it, and I'd especially like to thank Vahik and Joanne who I think so far have made it to everyone! But of course a big THANKS to all those who have come and party.
I did not attend nearly as many workshops/teacher trainings this year, was feeling a little cash strapped and like I needed a little reprieve. Probably one of the most useful workshops was with a great teacher named Adnan Tahovric, who used to teach in Ottawa, now teaches in Taipei. Best line that I remember from the workshop was to "Get on the mat and see what comes out…."
Seriously, some days it is hard to get on the mat, lots of excuses not to, like I'm tired, too sore, my knee hurts, too achey, Mike has a business call to make, there isn't time, really the list can and does go on. This little saying has helped me immensely and what comes out is sometimes surprising, I have more energy than I believe or thought.
Stick around for part two, my gratitude list……drum roll please….
So they say that it takes a village to raise a child, but I feel that without your village (whatver that means for you) life would lack meaning and purpose.
While there are so many people and things I am gratefu to and for, here is a short list........
All students who have come to my classes. Thank you for challenging me and keeping me on my toes. I hope that I have served you well, and will continue to do so.
The Ladies of Thursday night at Greenboro Community Centre. Classes are so much fun, I love the feedback from the peanut gallery, and we must contiue with our last class wine parties!
Mike B, DJ Fuzzy Mike, my hubby - Once again you have supported me with all my ups and downs, kept me on track, given me space when I need and hugs too.
Basia Going. The only person I know who can pull out a can of WD40 for a student in class and get away with it. I love your honesty, your strength, character and good humour. Your a fantastic teacher, I have learned so much from you.
Janice Tokaryk and Mike Mah: Am really thankful to have you both in my life, great teachers and great people. Thank you for all your help and support over 2009.
Tara Firma (Tara C and Tara P) of Rama Lotus Yoga Centre. Thanks for the support throughout the year. I'd also like to thank the reception staff of Rama Lotus who make my life so easy at Rama, you guys do such a great job.
Generally. I am so thankful for the beautiful home I live in, the food I eat, the clothes I wear, a body that works, my good health, my prosperity, my loving parents/family, my cat, a car.